《今生今世》｜”All Throughout My Life”

《今生今世》是大概是目前我學過最困難的，但也是我最有共鳴的合唱曲。去年十月我們去奧克拉荷馬表演，唱完這首歌之後我直接在後台情緒崩潰了。大約一年之後，這首歌真正成了我心境的寫照。從今以後，我會一直記得那些迴盪了將近三十年的、無窮無盡的笑聲，不過我或許有好長一段時間沒有辦法好好唱這首歌了。

今生今世
我最忘情的哭聲有兩次
一次，在我生命的開始
一次，在你生命的告終
第一次，我不會記得，是聽你說的
第二次，你不會曉得，我說也沒用
但兩次哭聲的中間啊
有無窮無盡的笑聲
一遍一遍又一遍
迴盪了整整三十年
你都曉得
我都記得
——余光中《母難日三題之一：今生今世》

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“All Throughout My Life” is perhaps the most difficult choral piece I have learned, yet it is also the one that I resonate with the most. When we performed this song in Tulsa, OK last October, I had a major meltdown in the backstage afterward. About a year later, this song became an accurate portrayal of my feelings. From now on, I will always remember our laughter that kept ringing again, again and again for almost thirty years, but I think it will be a while until I can sing this song properly again.

All throughout my life
Twice in abandon did I cry.
Once when my life began;
The other, when yours ended.
The first time, I couldn't remember but heard from you.
The second, you couldn't know even if I told.
Yet all between these two cries
Long our laughter kept ringing.
Again, again, and again
Ringing for thirty full years.
This surly you did know
And surely I can't forget.
-- Yu Kwang-Chung "All Throughout My Life"