親愛的媽媽,
生日快樂!這是妳不在的第三個生日,我對妳的思念卻好像一點兒都沒有被時間沖淡。
這首《萱草花》是電影《你好,李煥英》的主題曲。去年我好不容易鼓起勇氣看了這部電影,結果開場不到十分鐘我就哭崩了,直到電影結束之後,我的情緒還是久久無法平復,所以我後來也不敢再看這部電影了。雖然如此,我還是很喜歡這首《萱草花》,因為它的歌詞彷彿就是我的心聲,所以今年我想唱這首歌給妳。《萱草花》跟以前我唱過的其他歌曲相比並不算困難,但是我卻練習了很久,因為我總是唱著唱著就不小心哭了。現在我好不容易能完完整整唱完這首歌,希望妳喜歡。
過去這一年,我依舊努力實現我們的約定。工作上,我達到了前所未有的高度,我感覺我每天都在奮力地燃燒自己,綻放著最璀璨耀眼的光芒、照亮我身邊的人,一如妳生前的模樣。工作之餘,我的生活也是精彩紛呈,透過攀岩、跑步、登山等等戶外活動,不斷地突破著自己的極限。(五月底,我還花了兩天爬了沙斯塔山——我以前做夢都沒有想過的事。)回想起小時候我不愛運動的模樣,不知道妳怎麼看我的轉變?
現在的我,活得一年比一年神采飛揚。我好希望妳從不曾離開我的身旁,能親眼看著我越來越成熟穩重、越來越容光煥發。如果妳在天上看得見,希望妳感到既欣慰又驕傲。媽媽,我好想念妳。
Dear Mom,
Happy birthday! This is already your third birthday since you left, but it seems like time hasn’t washed away my grief.
“Orange Daylily” is the theme song for the movie Hi, Mom. Last year, I managed to muster up enough courage to watch this movie, and then within ten minutes of opening, I collapsed in tears. Long after the movie ended, I still wasn’t able to collect myself. I couldn’t watch the movie again, but I still love “Orange Daylily” because the lyrics are like the voice of my heart, so I wanted to sing it for you this year. “Orange Daylily” is not difficult compared to the other songs I sang before, but I spent a lot of time practicing because I somehow always ended up tearing up. Now I can finally finish singing the whole song without crying — I hope you like it.
In this past year, I worked very hard to keep my promise to you. At work, I am at my best and I have accomplished more than I ever had. I feel like I am burning myself every day, shining bright and lighting up the people around me, just like what you did your whole life. Outside of work, my life has been as fulfilling as it can be. Through rock climbing, running, hiking, and other outdoor activities, I continued to break through my limits. (At the end of May, I spent two days climbing Mt. Shasta, something that I didn’t think I could do before.) I wonder what you would think of my transformation, given how inactive I was and how much I hated sports growing up.
Since we parted, I have grown into a more vibrant person. I really wish you had never left me — this way you could see how I become more mature and beautiful. If you can see me from Heaven, I hope you feel happy and proud. I miss you, Mom.